Cinta..cinta...

Love is powerfull. Cinta bisa menuntutmu melakukan lebih dari tuntutan hukum yang paling detail sekalipun, dan saat kamu tetap terpaut dengannya, tuntutan itu menjadi menyenangkan untuk dijalankan dan kamu akan memperoleh kekuatan2 baru yang entah dari mana datangnya untuk melakukannya.

Cinta bisa membuatmu terlihat gila, betul! Tapi cinta itu ndak gila, tentu saja...:p Cinta itu harus mati-matian, kalau ndak belum bisa dinamakan cinta sejati, hanya cinta yang - sama sekali - ndak memadai. Kata orang, yang serba terlalu itu ndak baik, tapi itu ndak berlaku untuk cinta.

Kalau ternyata dari dulu sampai sekarang ada kasus-kasus ekstrem yang katanya karena cinta, apakah lalu benar "terlalu cinta" itu ndak baik? Salah kalau orang-orang lalu mengkambinghitamkan cinta itu sendiri. Penyebab kasus-kasus ekstrem itu adalah hal-hal lain di luar cinta. Keegoisan, keputusasaan, ketidakmampuan menghayati cinta dan menerima cinta dengan sepenuh-penuhnya adalah penyebab kasus-kasus tersebut.

Mencintai tentu saja harus melibatkan akal yang sehat, dan tidak melulu harus mengikuti emosi. Coz mencintai bukan cuma masalah perasaan, emosi yang meledak-ledak, yang akhirnya diikuti oleh tindakan-tindakan nekat akibat 'mengikuti' perasaan yang meledak-ledak dan seringkali ndak stabil. Inilah juga yang menyebabkan munculnya kasus-kasus ekstrem yang mengkambinghitamkan cinta.

So, gimana seharusnya mencintai itu? Mencintai dengan ekstrem secara benar bisa dilakukan dengan jalan mengikuti-Nya. Dialah sumber cinta dan teladan yang luar biasa tepat dalam mengimplementasikan cinta. Cinta membuat-Nya mampu melakukan apa saja untuk keselamatan dan kepenuhan hidup obyek cinta-Nya itu. Bahkan Dia mengatakan, bahwa cinta yang terbesar adalah dengan pengurbanan nyawa, pemberian diri seutuhnya, bahkan keberadaan-Nya sebagai manusia direlakan-Nya untuk kepentingan manusia. See..? Dia mati-matian dalam mencintai kita, tetapi Dia tidak melakukan hal bodoh karena cinta, justru Dia melakukan hal-hal yang luar biasa indah karena cinta-Nya. Dia tidak mementingkan keegoisan-Nya melainkan sepenuh-penuhnya hidup dalam kepenuhan cinta, karena Dialah Sang Cinta itu sendiri.

Nah, kalau Dia habis-habisan dalam mencintai kita, apakah pantas kita mencintai dengan setengah-setengah? No..no! Sekali lagi, cinta itu harus mati-matian, kalau ndak, cinta itu belum memadai...

Passion

I want you! I want you to be here with me. Stay close around me to be cared & loved.
I don't know, how come you have a great meaning in my deepest heart. You shine brighter than even a sun in my mind & my soul. You are my smile, my laugh, my spirit, my reason to have strength in my life. My big problems have been reduced, I could keep smiling facing everything. I could hope in my dissapointness, i could have a spirit in my weakness, i could dream when there was nothing that can be hoped, i could smile in my tears, it's all 'cause of you...

Dear, you are so precious to me. A heart of my heart. I can't live far away from you. There's you in every single thing that can make me cheerfull. My world become dark 'n so quiet without you. There's nothing can make me feel like a woman, without you. Everything has lost it's meaning without you inside it.

I wanna know everything about you. I wanna pay all my attention to you. Wanna be a part of you, wanna be 'ear' to hear your stories, wanna be a true friend as long as you need me, wanna be the air you breath, wanna be usefull 'n have meaningfull for you. Wanna spend my whole time with you beside me in HIS love. My dearest heart, how i adore you...

Can you understand this? Can't you see, that i need you? Can't you realize that you are important to me? Can't you understand that everything i do is inspired by you? I'll do anything for you. So why you just keep in silent? What should i do to win your heart, & make it mine until the end of the world? Am i not worth enough to have the complete happiness?

You are one of the biggest reasons i believe in love, 'n expect too much to make this sweetest dream to be come true. But how? Where's the way? I don't care how hurt my heart will, how difficult the way is, i just look straight ahead, keep my eyes on you. I've been trying in many ways, but i haven't find the right way. Help me to find it...

Hm..i wanna sing a song:

You know you're everything to me and I could never see
the two of us apart...
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart...

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like i've never needed anyone before.

I live my life for you
I wanna be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe in true
I live my life for you.

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you...

WIthout You

Without you...the days are so long and tiredfull
Without you...every night is empty ‘n skeary me in its silence ‘n ‘darkness’
Without you...i miss something energizing, i miss something making me smile perfectly
Without you...a soul of friendship has been disappeared
Without you...no smile & laugh in complete happiness
Without you...i've lost a perfect meaningfull life
Without you...no phone call that i'm waiting for, no pm in ym that i expect...
Without you...i don't know who to think about a lover, a true friend
Without you...i’m not interested to sing a song the way we used to do it, to talk many things deeply 'n inspiredly, even joking with loud laugh...(oh dear, i miss it for long time)
Without you...i don't have any best idea how to be an great person, a grown up 'n cheerfull one, a girl in perfectness enjoying this big world.

Everything that u've been giving me is so meaningfull bro. There won't be someone like you. Thx to make me one of your friend. I feel so lucky to have you. I don’t wanna lose it. I’m so sorry that I’ve been egoistic, selfish, childish ‘n judging everything unfair oftenly. I’ll show you, that I can change it, I can be your good friend that you can proud of.

You must know that u've got a special place in my heart 'n my life. You’ve become a part of my life. You’ll finally know how beautiful you’ve filled my life in ‘a way’.
I can't take my mind of you...i really can't!

So come back to me, stay around me ‘n shine my life brightly…